Exploded

So I am sitting in the Library trying to write my poetry essay thats due tomorrow. I am not an A student. I have not been putting my best foot forward and using my time wisely. I do feel bad about that. I am going to be in debt just to go to college and I'm wasting everything. :(....I don't even know what I'm majoring in. Heaven help me! I'm leaning towards biology and becoming a dentist but honestly I don't care for science. But we all have to do things we don't like to get where we want to go. And I want to get as far away from my mom as possible. I love her but she is like a warden to me. Boss can I go to the movies? Boss can I turn this light on? Boss can I have that last yogurt in the refrigerator? Yeah I have to ask for every damn thing and I don't want to do that anymore. She asks is it so bad living at home and honestly it could be worse. But it ALWAYS could be worse. Thats no excuse to stay in a bad environment. Just because it's not the worst it can be. This is what motivates me in school. I need to focus on getting away from my mom and I will never do that if I fail English! 

Who would have thought quitting a job you've worked at for over a year would be so awesome??!!! Well I actually knew it would be great but I never had the courage to actually go through with it until now. Everything is falling into place and the only thing that can make this suck is if I get into some tight money situation so I'll just pray everything works out until I at least get another job. No lie, I'm trying to stay without one as long as I can! Lazy I know, irresponsible I agree, but whatever I'm ok with that.